Sometimes you loose perspective, you get caught up in the all consuming vat of flaming quicksand that is academia, you obsess over deadlines, hate yourself over percieved expectations, you sacrifice your health, you worry about burning out. Then something happens, not to you or really someone really that close to you and it all telescopes. Suddenly its like you’re looking at everything from on top of a high building and the wind just blocks out all sound and for the first time you think “what the fuck am I doing?”
You realize that it could easily be you or anyone of your freinds. That everything you worry about isnt much of anything. All the times you put on your game face, you summon the strength to rally pmw more time and here yourself say “man fuck this.”
Then you feel yourself suddenly relax and smile; and you dont remember the last time you did that and its good.